Worry...

Worry is something that seems to rule parts of life. But whats is it and how useful is it??

Worry is merely a internal metal projection of what you think may happen in the future. You don't know what will happen, and in most instances there is little control over the future. In life i now believe there to be two things; situations that you have control over, and those that you do not. If you can change the outcome of an event, then you do not need to worry, and if you cannot change to outcome, then worrying will not change anything.
Baz Luhrman put it very well when he said "Worrying is as effective as trying to solve and algebra equation by chewing bubblegum". That really is how simple it is, worry is an anticipated projection that will cause you to miss out on where you are right here and now. You are always living in the moment, you are never in the future, and even if you do get to a point you saw in your future projection, it will still be the now, so by living in the now, you can remove worry, remove negativity and just be so happy to see life in all it's glory.
Live in the now and appreciate life around you. Next time you see a beautiful object, don't just say "look at that beautiful flower/sunset/mountain" as a mechanical reaction to societies condition, really feel the beauty and let it wash over you. It brings about peace and tranquility, something that seemed to be missing from my life before NZ where i was living in the future, always worrying about work, houseing, money, what i was going to do next week instead of merely seeing where i was and how great a place that is.

Travelling does broaden your horizons, but you don't need to head off round the world to see just how amazing the place you are at is. Home is where the heart is so love you home and you will see it in such an incredible way...

Life in Wanaka...

So i have been in Wanaka for a few months now and it is still just as much fun as it was when i arrived. I've met some incredible people, had some amazing jobs, and have learnt so much about life and how i can cope. I've had run ins with all sorts, both good and bad, but i have rocked out on the other side of each situation a better person, with more knowledge, more experience, more life lived and more passion for the next step. NZ has hit me so hard in terms of showing me what a different life is out there compared to how i was living back in the UK. Here is much more relaxed, much more subtle, much more intimate. My town has 6000 inhabitants and there is such a sense of community here. everyone is looking out for everyone, people stop and talk to you in the street, each stranger here is merely a friend waiting to happen, it blows me away each day i wake up and find what i am looking for.

New Zealand has trully become everything i hoped for, but nothing like i expected. I will always come back here, it feels as much a home to me as St.Albans, and Stoke does. Tomorrow i get my new tattoo to capture the essence of my time in New Zealand, my experiences, my memories, my ups and downs, and my journey.

I remember seeing a quote when i was younger on a climbing poster that read

"Success is a journey, not a destination"

That quote seems to fit what i have found, where i have come from and where i may go to but i don't think 'success' is what i am after. To me, success is happiness, health, love and freedom. They are our basic human rights and they are so achievable to all of us if we want it, you just have to open yourself to finding it and it will flood in....

New Job...

I now have a new job working for Cardona Alpine resort in the Ticket Office of the Ski Field. by far and away this is the most amazing job i have ever had. Each day i drive a work provided van from my house out of town, up the mountain as the sun is rising, i spend all day sitting in bluebord skies whilst the cloud inversion sits in the valley and i get to ride for free each day. Skiing is something i have doen only once before i started this job but in 3 days I have got it sussed on intermediate runs and working to hit the black runs too.
The team i work with is fantastic, the whole mountain buzzes with energy and positivity, it picks you up and you just ride on a wave of jubilation all day and night.

Each day so far i arrive, and leave work still smiling, and that is truly something, to be happy each and every day with your job, i feel so good about being here. new jobs and new beginnings, magic...