Worry...

Worry is something that seems to rule parts of life. But whats is it and how useful is it??

Worry is merely a internal metal projection of what you think may happen in the future. You don't know what will happen, and in most instances there is little control over the future. In life i now believe there to be two things; situations that you have control over, and those that you do not. If you can change the outcome of an event, then you do not need to worry, and if you cannot change to outcome, then worrying will not change anything.
Baz Luhrman put it very well when he said "Worrying is as effective as trying to solve and algebra equation by chewing bubblegum". That really is how simple it is, worry is an anticipated projection that will cause you to miss out on where you are right here and now. You are always living in the moment, you are never in the future, and even if you do get to a point you saw in your future projection, it will still be the now, so by living in the now, you can remove worry, remove negativity and just be so happy to see life in all it's glory.
Live in the now and appreciate life around you. Next time you see a beautiful object, don't just say "look at that beautiful flower/sunset/mountain" as a mechanical reaction to societies condition, really feel the beauty and let it wash over you. It brings about peace and tranquility, something that seemed to be missing from my life before NZ where i was living in the future, always worrying about work, houseing, money, what i was going to do next week instead of merely seeing where i was and how great a place that is.

Travelling does broaden your horizons, but you don't need to head off round the world to see just how amazing the place you are at is. Home is where the heart is so love you home and you will see it in such an incredible way...

Life in Wanaka...

So i have been in Wanaka for a few months now and it is still just as much fun as it was when i arrived. I've met some incredible people, had some amazing jobs, and have learnt so much about life and how i can cope. I've had run ins with all sorts, both good and bad, but i have rocked out on the other side of each situation a better person, with more knowledge, more experience, more life lived and more passion for the next step. NZ has hit me so hard in terms of showing me what a different life is out there compared to how i was living back in the UK. Here is much more relaxed, much more subtle, much more intimate. My town has 6000 inhabitants and there is such a sense of community here. everyone is looking out for everyone, people stop and talk to you in the street, each stranger here is merely a friend waiting to happen, it blows me away each day i wake up and find what i am looking for.

New Zealand has trully become everything i hoped for, but nothing like i expected. I will always come back here, it feels as much a home to me as St.Albans, and Stoke does. Tomorrow i get my new tattoo to capture the essence of my time in New Zealand, my experiences, my memories, my ups and downs, and my journey.

I remember seeing a quote when i was younger on a climbing poster that read

"Success is a journey, not a destination"

That quote seems to fit what i have found, where i have come from and where i may go to but i don't think 'success' is what i am after. To me, success is happiness, health, love and freedom. They are our basic human rights and they are so achievable to all of us if we want it, you just have to open yourself to finding it and it will flood in....

New Job...

I now have a new job working for Cardona Alpine resort in the Ticket Office of the Ski Field. by far and away this is the most amazing job i have ever had. Each day i drive a work provided van from my house out of town, up the mountain as the sun is rising, i spend all day sitting in bluebord skies whilst the cloud inversion sits in the valley and i get to ride for free each day. Skiing is something i have doen only once before i started this job but in 3 days I have got it sussed on intermediate runs and working to hit the black runs too.
The team i work with is fantastic, the whole mountain buzzes with energy and positivity, it picks you up and you just ride on a wave of jubilation all day and night.

Each day so far i arrive, and leave work still smiling, and that is truly something, to be happy each and every day with your job, i feel so good about being here. new jobs and new beginnings, magic...

Hurts like a hole in the hand...

playing with our American Staffy Bull yesterday, i managed to get him confused betweenwhat is a stick and what is a hand.
Unfortunately for me, that meant a swift trip to the docs for a tetanus, and get it stitched back up. Hope this wont affect the start of ski season which kicks off in a week, and i am supposed to be climbing tomorrow too so it could be a one handed session, no way i am not going!
Sun is shining, i have a week of no work, and life is swell and swimmingly....

Tattoo plans...

I've got some plans at the moment for some new tattoos that will show what this trip to NZ has done for me and my new outlook on life, my new refreshed state of mind, my new found peace, trust and love for the life i am in.

Watch this space...

Two people cannot look for each other...

So over the last week i have come to a bit of an odd realisation. It started on a shopping trip over to Queenstown with a friend, ending up in the Warehouse store. We both disappeared off in different directions to get the things we each needed, but this store is huge. I lost Mel and walked around for nearly 20mins looking for her. She, having lost me, did the same. The whole time i was looking for her, she was looking for me. I walked clockwise round the store, went out to the car, sat on a bench by the door, then went hunting again. All this time, Mel was doing the same, even going anti clockwise round the store incase we were following each other. Eventually she stopped and waited for me to arrive. Only then did we find each other.

Two days ago, a friend in town vanished after a night out, and we spent until 2pm the next day looking for her. She was also looking for us this whole time. Again, only when we stopped and took stock of the situation, knowing that she knew where we worked and where we lived, she would come to us so it was now my turn to wait to be found.

This is it, this is what i realsied. Two people cannot look for each other, one of you must be found, the other must doing the finding, else you run around in circles, endlessly hunting for something that is geographically mobile. This fits so many things in life, and i believe that if you are searching for something static, then be active, get going and go find it. If however, what you are searching for is mobile, is impossible to place, then breathe, take a step back and see if it can find you. Invariably this world will provide just what you want, just when you need it.

If you don't believe this, have some faith and give it a go...

If you put it out there, the universe will provide...

So 18months ago i said that i was going to move to New Zealand and work on a ski field in Wanaka.
I knew almost nothing about Wanaka, know no-one here, knew nothing about the ski industry, but here i am, on the run up to NZ winter with a job up on Cardrona ski field. It all worked out so perfectly that it trully showed to me the power of the universe and the laws of attraction.

My decision to live and work in Wanaka all those months ago was based upon nothing. This town is maybe 6,000 inhabitants strong, dwarfed by its bigger neighbors but it called to me, i was attracted to it, and through that law of attraction, i have made it, found what i was looking for and am blissfully happy.

My job stacking fruit and veg has been great, the job is easy, social, relaxing, and pays the bills. I have had a great start to life here and moving to a new job on Cardrona is just the next step in this incredible journey that is the life i am living.

This is not the start, not the end, just the Now. All we have is that moment in the Now when the past is a memory, and the future is a projection of what we think might happen. Problems from past and worries for the future drift away, replaced instead by the most incredible feeling of worth right here and Now. Now i trully look at this world i live in, and instead of saying "What a pretty flower"as a mechanical response to it, i really see the beauty in the world, the people, and the things around me.

Live the Dream, Live the Now, Love the Life....